Vivid.

(Day Last: A Vivid Memory)

Back when I started my travels, I kept a diary on my computer.  On October 15th, 2007 this was the last entry, spacing and capitalization in tact.

10.15.07

i feel like i am living at the edge of an avalanche.

i’m always just waiting for it to fall.

waiting for it to topple upon me.

the anticipation, however, smothers me more

until i cannot breathe,

and the few breaths i can muster

are sharp, cold and stinging in my lungs.

i can’t even write.